111 posts from 2008

HUGS TA!
omg i miss you all so so so so much :(
i want a ♥-♥ talk!
one where we can just open up and spilllll.
about everything.
i want sleepover!
i want red cross room D:
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
&&&I HATE PW. the guys in my group are shit.

the jap guy really quite cute what!
damn tired and sianz of everything D:

don't go around assuming things if you havent heard it from the person yourself.
it hurt really bad, you know.
i read your blog, by the way, and i thought you ought to know.
i cant believe it's gone to this stage.
i did nothing, said nothing, and you're telling me nothing.
you're not even telling me what i've done.
if i'm in the wrong, you're not giving me a chance to apologise.
stop changing the topic.
stop it.
stop it.
stop it.
are you happy now.

wednesday is going to be a whole lot of hoo-ha and drama.
(i hope)
we're going to settle things once and for all!
(i hope)
and if after that things still remain the same, the parents will step in and do something about it.
(i hope)
and then we'll finally get things run the way we want them to be.
Wa Liaw wa Liew where got like that one! they are so loser rawr.
people, we've got to be brave and stand up for ourselves.

1. I've been eating a lot a lot a lot, even more than usual. :( My stomach feels bloated the entire day. Peeeves I've got to stop being so greedy!
2. Dance is back :D
3. Studytime has been automatically reduced.
4. I'm becoming lazy again.
5. I really lack sleep and I'm going to sleep pretty soon. Maybe after I post this.
6. I want to change my specs (yes I know, it's been forever) and I don't care I will get it changed soon!
7. J2s helped us choreo some parts :D
8. I don't want to go for Econs remedial D:
9. Dance dance dance.
10. I still cannot break! D: super frustrating nyeh.
11. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate NicoleL. Stupid selfish idiotic ass !)(*#(#$&*!^@%!^$!!!

Probably the third hardest I've cried in my entire life.
Grandpa was cremated yesterday.
Not easy to take.
But people told me he would go to heaven.
He would keep mom company.
That made me feel a tad better.
(But why we conducted a Buddhist ritual, I really don't know.)
At the same time I was reminded of her.
Especially yesterday, when my uncle cried out "PA! Run out now, don't get burnt! Run out, HURRY!"
Yes, that was denial.
Denial he was really gone.
Same thing that I had felt 3 years ago when mom went.
At the tracks next to his.
The only thought I had in my head was "MOM. Come out! Don't get burnt! HURRY UP AND COME OUT! You're not dead yet!"
Every day as I accompanied her coffin, looking at her, wishing she wasn't gonna go.
Wishing she would wake up one day and ask us to get her out of there.
Like what Ned the pie-maker did with his touch.
And I cried and cried and cried.
Couldn't do nothing about the coffin being pushed into flames.
Another life, gone, forever.
One less in the family.
At least they're together now.
At least she won't be lonely.

i'm not going to remain permanently stupid. 

Learnt Yunning's house choreo today.
It's damn fun! :D
Hmm things are starting to get busier now.
O'team interview this saturday! :S
= I'm kinda nervous cos basically I've always been screwing up my interviews
I miss oschool!
Haven't been going since school started.
BAH. :/

First time at Seoul Garden! (technically it's yesterday but whatever yea?) with first-class company! (be honoured, my dears) It was damn fun, hahaha. I take back my words about not wanting to cook, cooking is damn fun! It's like in runescape, y'know? You flip the prawn until it turns orange then you eat. Hahaha in our case minjia was the only one eating the prawns! xD Teriyaki chicken owns, remember that jianing. And that you don't really like the beef cos it's tougher than chicken. And the curry chicken tastes odd. o_o And you love apricot icecream, and you've relit that love for cookies&cream icecream as well. :DDD -floats around in heaven. It was a damn filling meal, in conclusion. And we had fun camwhoring. LEE PEIRONG I WANT PHOTOS :DDDDD Multi-shots are damn fun! Must thank the street j2s for constantly doing that HAHAHA (especially during competition pracs lol!) so i've had plenty of practice! Hahaha.